I can't seem to comprehend why I've been making the worst life decisions this year. I don't believe in New Year resolutions but is that the very reason why? If I were to make a list, would I be one to follow through? I wouldn't think so.

It has been a difficult year no doubt, but I wouldn't think it is the most difficult one because so far, I've been pretty self-aware of every decision I follow through, even the bad ones.

I'm not sure where I'm really going with this, to be honest.

"Why do you wear makeup?"

"Do you want the -philosophical- answer or the -shutupyourface- answer?"

"... The -shutupyourface- answer"

"Well then, shut up your face..."

"Uh, okay..."

Being the pantsy ass that I've always been, I tend to have a thing for not disclosing the truth. Not that I was being dishonest in the first place, I had nothing to lie about. I just didn't have the heart to let anyone know that hey, I put makeup on so that I've something to hide behind.