I feel the need to rant. It's wet outside and I'm indoors. The atmosphere seems to be pretty nice right now. It just rained really heavily and I witnessed or should I say admired quite a handful of pretty lightning strikes. They were right in front of me, like so near yet so far kinda feeling. I feel like touching a lightning. Is that even possible? I think I will die. Or maybe I should wear a rubber suit before I step out of the house and into the pouring rain. Hmm.

He finally replied my sms and dare I say, I was grinning from ear to ear. No, he's not someone I like or anything to that relation (infatuation, puppy love, lust bla bla). He was a former colleague or should I say friend? I meant he IS a friend and WAS a colleague. Okay, I find it really weird to call people I work with colleagues because I see colleagues as those that work with you in an office and do paper work with you and hold serious-looking meetings in some cool shit boardroom or something like that. You dig? So, he's a friend and a neighbour too which is a double yummy delight. Which doesn't really make sense but just bear with me alright.

My mother's in the kitchen cooking. I'm freaking hungry. Okay, when am I never not hungry? Seriously, I eat to live to live to eat. Dig? My stomach's about to grumble and make crazy noises. Not that I haven't eaten. Of course I ate. I can't pull a Lindsay or a Nicole or the Olsen Twins. Impossible. I bet Jin feels the same way too. If she actually is able to decipher what I'm rambling about here but oh well.

I've yet to go to the office to give them the money I've collected and neither have I collected my pay from them. The place is really near and it'd be stupid to take public transport there. One, taxi fares are crazy like my ass. Two, it'd take me 2 buses to get there even though it's freaking near. I'm just too freaking lazy to walk. Too freaking lazy to give a damn about anything. But then again, hmm. Oh did I tell you, I quit my first job. Well not exactly first job, but while I was working my night job (I'm no hooker or bartop dancer), this former job was in the afternoon. So technically the afternoon job came first and the night one second. Right? Sooooo, I'm done with it cause it's draining the hell out of my body and it's worsened my condition.

What condition you ask? Well, I ain't going to tell you. Or maybe I am but I think I'm too lazy to type it out here because.. Well, because my mum just called and I think dinner is ready. Sooooooo..

Chao.

Ignite and shimmer.
Then die out and simmer.
Tonight's not a finale.
Patiently stay at bay.

Shine bright beacon.
Observe and listen.
Everytime so bittersweet.
Everytime we meet.

Flames don't dance.
With airs so tense.
Strike and destroy.
Advance with a ploy.

Desired with a notion.
A satisfactory potion.
Appease an addiction.
Amuse not an obsession.

Confine an alter ego.
Liberate the surreal hero.
Persist and restrain.
Overcome and be sane.

Hi Grandpa, how're you doing up there?
Do you have a minute to spare?
There's a lot of things I need to tell you about.
So just sit back, relax and hear me out.

How have you been in the after-life?
You're not dead to me, you're very much alive.
Everything happened so fast that day.
And I really wished you're still around to stay.

I have dreams of you when I feel down.
I think it's you telling me you're still around.
If dreams do come true, where are you now?
I can't find you so please come out.

Will you knock on my door and call my name?
Will you look different or will you still be the same?
I very much miss you holding my hand,
And you reminding me to be the best that I can.

So won't you wipe these tears away.
And tell me that everything will be okay.
If only we could've spent more time together.
Then perhaps I could've lived life a little more happier.

I miss the man who would miss work for me.
I miss him, terribly.
If I could just have one more day with him,
I'd be the happiest girl in the world you would've seen.

I wish you're still around to teach me lessons.
Teach me to be independent and not be complacent.
We can take walks at the park or by the beach.
I'll remember to practise whatever you preach.

How's life up there, in the heavens above?
I heard it's a nice place. What food do they serve?
I'll promise to visit once my time is done.
Then we could reunite, spend time and have great fun.

Hi again, world. I've completed uploading pictures of LnL. Well actually not completely because I only upload pictures where only people actually look at my camera. No moshing pictures as I was really holding on tight to my camera because I was so afraid I'd be pulled into the mosh and god knows what you crazy moshers might do to my camera.

I went to see LnL with my friends, old and new! The TK people who were there were Zakk (who is me duh! I just like to spell my name. Sue me.), Haiqal, Izzatul, Saeful, Syamim and Nas who I've not met in sucha long time! New friends are Zul (met at Haiqal's place like 2 months ago and he's really nice!), Ezzati (met during our visit to the awesome art schools together with Zul), Sisqa (Haiqal's chalet! I tried to kiss her but she didn't let me), Azhar (Haiqal's chalet also! But I didn't try to kiss him uh.), Wan (Picnic at ECP! Nice guy.), Razak (first time meeting who always terase when people call me and I also feel the same way when people call him because we share the same nickname.), together with Nuril, Diana and Iskandar who I met all for the first time and they are a nice bunch of people who are really nice because they are nice people who are very nice. Know what I mean?

And and Bob and his friends were also there! I only know one of them is Amin because only Amin introduced himself to me. Well, Bob and his friends were there thanks to me who I should really thank either Aman or Amir because either one of them were the provider of LnL tickets to everyone. All hail me and Aman or Amir.

Oh and to girls and guys who go googoo-gaagaa over Utt, get this. Utt waved to me and I took pictures of him like really close and he touched my hand! Well, he didn't touch really. He did more than that. No, he didn't rape my hand though I secretly wished he did. Wishful thinking, Zakk. He shook my hand and smiled at me. He has a really cute smile and I want to take him home and lock him in my cupboard so I can have him all to myself everday and no one else can take him away from me. Yeah! Zakk, stop it.

Alright, that's all for introductions. I bet you're super bored already so the following are all pictures! Continue on to the previous post for more pictures. All for your viewing pleasure.














































































It's not nice for you because I'm thinking of him.
I'm trying to get over this but chances are slim.
I really like you but I'm in love with another guy.
Now it gets worse because I've to lie.

It's unfair for you because you were never invovled.
He damn right sucks for it was me he first ignored.
Feelings are stirred, things have ocurred.
Currently, everything's blurred.

I'm very sorry to the both of you.
I'm really the one to be screwed.
I think I'm going to take my leave.
And leave the both of you completely, maybe.

Chao.