Very upset with the world right now, including myself.

I know it's the Raya month but I just can't seem to be naturally happy about anything. I don't talk about it because I don't want to. Instead, I do stupid things like - . I can't stop because I feel so hollow without it.

I can't help but feel very miserable. And people make jokes about it. Go ahead. You don't know how angry I am at myself. You don't know how it feels like to live my life. I know everyone has their own problems and I shan't compare and tell everyone I'm the most fucked up person in the whole wide world.

But why does everything have to happen at this time? During Raya month. I'm supposed to forgive and forget but I really can't bring myself to do it.

I miss my friends from GYLC. Those who were there for me, who told me to take my time and not rush me, who walked me to my room, who supported me, who accompanied me when I was alone, who carried my things for me, who wished me well. I miss you all so much.

I know I was being pampered there but I can't help but feel unloved when I reached home. It felt so empty. No one gave a damn whether i was struggling making my way to the toilet, or whether I felt uncomfortable. No one gave a fucking damn about me.

Whatever you know. Seriously. I can cry myself to sleep thinking about all the bullshit but I choose not too. Being injured is painful enough, having sore eyes no thanks.

Oh well. Shit happens.

Blogger has finally allowed me to upload pictures. Soon, I shall flood my blog with pictures like I used to alright.

Chao.