Hello world.

I've decided to blog. Because I've nothing better to do right now.

I'm thinking of moving on but I'm not ready to let go. Because I made a promise. To you. I think and think. And I'm still wondering if you actually meant what you said. I never made empty promises but now you're forcing me to because I've no other choice.

I don't mind leaving in denial even if I have to. I refuse to face reality because reality's a bitch. I don't want to know the truth and I'd rather be lied to than to have reality smack me real hard in the face.

Surprisingly, I've found a reason to move on but I'm not so sure if I want it to get the better of me. Right now. I'm still hanging on but it hurts so much because you don't care. At least I think you don't. Well, actually I think you really don't. You've given up and made resolutions.

Thank god for New Year resolutions. Thank you for choosing to change for the better. Thank you for staying on the right path. Thank you for discarding all the negativity in you. Thank you for throwing me away.

I'm sorry for all the things I've done. I'm sorry for all the things I've not done. I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused you. I'm sorry for feeling your head with all those thoughts. I'm sorry for letting you down. I'm sorry for everything.

Perhaps, I'm not a nice person afterall.

But I really thank you for urging me to let go. Who knows what'd happen if I hadn't listen to you. Who knows what'd happen if I was stubborn. Who knows what'd happen if you hadn't scolded me.

I want you to know that a part of you is with me wherever I go and this I make very sure of because you've thought me a lot of things and somehow, I think, I just think that a part of me is with you, wherever you go. I hope. No, I don't hope. I want you to think so. I need you to think so.

I'm thinking of moving on because I've found a reason to, but I know and am very sure, I'm not ready to let go.

Thanks for the memories.

Chao.