Hmm, gota let it all go after inferring from what Jo has told me and yes Jill it's now my turn to tell you. Firstly, after I broke up with FIFI, I posted about friends hating me for having a BF. I wasn't hinting that to you if you somehow felt like I was. And I remember jolly well that after I blogged about it, you somehow replied by saying "I was your good friend, I'm vulgar, I dye my hair, yada yada yada" Last part I remembered you said "Go away!" And yes I did what you told me to, go away. Wasn't I already THAT BAD from last time? Nvm about that. The best part was you believed I was a lesbian and you hated me for that?! Oi, can you think before you make assumptions? I'm in a mixed school, I have crushes on MANY MANY guys. Wth were you thinking about me? Just because my school has a "bad" reputation and you think I'm corrupted, you think I can't think straight is it? Wah liao, stupid leh.
You told Jo that she is closer to me now and you were not close to me anymore. Do me a favour, can YOU ask YOURSELF why? I squeezed my time so that we all 911team or Double S can go out together but somehow that SPECIAL SOMEONE always have other things to attend to. That I don't mind, but it's like I'm making an effort here to meet you, see you, talk to you, trying to catch up with you, but hey guess what I got ditched by you. Yay, I'm so happy for that Jill. Remember, you were the one who told me to go away ah, not me.
Even after that, remember Double S sleep over? Where were you? I don't know. I had to beg my mother to come back to Singapore to see you guys and I had to go through my grandmother's naggings to come back to Singapore. I was so tied up that week but I managed to squeeze in time for sleep over. And even though you weren't there, WE ENJOYED OURSELVES. Very much.
I'm closer to Jo and true enough, Zakk Gang was indeed better for me. Firstly about Jo, she made time to go out with me to hang around town, to just slack at my place, to eat lunch and spend MILLIONS on neoprints. We even went out at night to do work. I know it would be asking too much but how many millions of times have I asked you out last year? How many times were you able to go out with me? Zakk Gang, I just knew them last year but they made me feel as though I had no bad past, they made me feel as though I was like as close as family to them. They spent time with me when I was down, when I was depressed, when I was going to cry. They even laughed with me when I was happy and hyper and crazy. They were there for me when you ditched me, when I broke up with FIFI, when I had problems with my family. Not only Zakk Gang but MANY TK friends of mine supported me during my downs. Ice was one of them, after cca she would just sit with me even though I didn't feel like talking. She went home late because she wanted to accompany me. And when she felt down, I sacrificed my time to be with her. I would sit with her even though she did not talk. I went home late because I wanted to accompany her. Even Andrea, I knew her not long ago, and look, she cheered me up.
Simple friends make me happy, but what you did was really disappointing. You thought I was lesbian when Glor told you. You assumed I was and then you disliked me yada yada yada. WOW, I'M LESBIAN THEREFOR I HAVE ONE LESS FRIEND. So? Couldn't you ask me if I was lesbian or not? Instead you really believed what others said. For one last time, I'm in a co-ed school and I have many crushes on BOYS. Ok, maybe I think Ms Erma is fucking hot and maybe I do have a crush on her but hello, I'm not going to be lesbian just because of her right? Can you at least think with an open mind?
I know my english is not that well, but hey, I hope you understand what I have just said and no, I'm not going to pick a fight or quarrel with you about this. You have already went through alot with Glor and I don't want this to affect you. If you felt hurt or happy about it, good for you. You know how I feel. And don't assume I don't know how you feel. Don't assume everyone doesn't know how you feel. Everyone has their ups and downs. And don't be jealous, there are many great friends in PL too.
It's just how I feel and I'm telling the whole world about it. I don't have qualms telling people anything if they ask nicely. You may like me or not after this. I'm just not gona dwell on the past anymore. Accept me for who I am, or not.
Oh and Mitch, about that time the jamming thing, I apologise for being too hard. I was so confident our band was going to work out but hey, nvm lah. When you have time tell me ok? Then we shall do some stuffs or just hang around.
You told Jo that she is closer to me now and you were not close to me anymore. Do me a favour, can YOU ask YOURSELF why? I squeezed my time so that we all 911team or Double S can go out together but somehow that SPECIAL SOMEONE always have other things to attend to. That I don't mind, but it's like I'm making an effort here to meet you, see you, talk to you, trying to catch up with you, but hey guess what I got ditched by you. Yay, I'm so happy for that Jill. Remember, you were the one who told me to go away ah, not me.
Even after that, remember Double S sleep over? Where were you? I don't know. I had to beg my mother to come back to Singapore to see you guys and I had to go through my grandmother's naggings to come back to Singapore. I was so tied up that week but I managed to squeeze in time for sleep over. And even though you weren't there, WE ENJOYED OURSELVES. Very much.
I'm closer to Jo and true enough, Zakk Gang was indeed better for me. Firstly about Jo, she made time to go out with me to hang around town, to just slack at my place, to eat lunch and spend MILLIONS on neoprints. We even went out at night to do work. I know it would be asking too much but how many millions of times have I asked you out last year? How many times were you able to go out with me? Zakk Gang, I just knew them last year but they made me feel as though I had no bad past, they made me feel as though I was like as close as family to them. They spent time with me when I was down, when I was depressed, when I was going to cry. They even laughed with me when I was happy and hyper and crazy. They were there for me when you ditched me, when I broke up with FIFI, when I had problems with my family. Not only Zakk Gang but MANY TK friends of mine supported me during my downs. Ice was one of them, after cca she would just sit with me even though I didn't feel like talking. She went home late because she wanted to accompany me. And when she felt down, I sacrificed my time to be with her. I would sit with her even though she did not talk. I went home late because I wanted to accompany her. Even Andrea, I knew her not long ago, and look, she cheered me up.
Simple friends make me happy, but what you did was really disappointing. You thought I was lesbian when Glor told you. You assumed I was and then you disliked me yada yada yada. WOW, I'M LESBIAN THEREFOR I HAVE ONE LESS FRIEND. So? Couldn't you ask me if I was lesbian or not? Instead you really believed what others said. For one last time, I'm in a co-ed school and I have many crushes on BOYS. Ok, maybe I think Ms Erma is fucking hot and maybe I do have a crush on her but hello, I'm not going to be lesbian just because of her right? Can you at least think with an open mind?
I know my english is not that well, but hey, I hope you understand what I have just said and no, I'm not going to pick a fight or quarrel with you about this. You have already went through alot with Glor and I don't want this to affect you. If you felt hurt or happy about it, good for you. You know how I feel. And don't assume I don't know how you feel. Don't assume everyone doesn't know how you feel. Everyone has their ups and downs. And don't be jealous, there are many great friends in PL too.
It's just how I feel and I'm telling the whole world about it. I don't have qualms telling people anything if they ask nicely. You may like me or not after this. I'm just not gona dwell on the past anymore. Accept me for who I am, or not.
Oh and Mitch, about that time the jamming thing, I apologise for being too hard. I was so confident our band was going to work out but hey, nvm lah. When you have time tell me ok? Then we shall do some stuffs or just hang around.
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